hpiuhhh...

hard to do but must be done
wanna tell a story but don't want everyone knows
wanna keep in silence but forced to speech..
urgh..can't live the way we want, after all we're not the only one who live here
got to try to control ourself, to be more considere to others
as an adult should act, selfish is not in the list
hpiuhhh sometimes not fun to be an adult, wish i could scream as loud as i could, may do anything as i like
sometimes i feel that acting as an adult is like living an the cage, hehehe there's always a little child live inside me
i think.........................

today's pray

Ya Allah,
mohon  berikan pikiran yang paling positif
dalam kondisi yang paling negatif sekalipun
mohon lindungi hati ini dari lingkungan yang tidak bersahabat
mohon jaga jiwa ini dari kerasnya pertempuran batin
amin....

ups

cloudy morning...rainy day
as grey as my heart...
wanna get rid over it soon
please give me the spirit to move on
trying to control all my negative emotion
make them as positive as i can
....

jagalah hati ...

Judul lagu jagalah hati dah gak cucok lagi buat menentramkan suasana hati sekarang, soalnya yang mempopulerkan lagu itu kayaknya telah gagal menjaga banyak hati orang yang selama ini dengan istiqomah rajin mendengarkan petuahnya. Jadi kayak orang yang gak punya kumis tebal tapi jualan obat penebak kumis gitchu...
Walaupin demikian, untuk menentramkan suasana hati yang bergejolak, tiap orang harus punya jurus jitu masing-masing, karena seharusnya kitalah yang lebih tahu diri kita sendiri. Seiring dengan putaran waktu, kebutuhan hidup manusia juga bertambah, oleh karena itu kapasitas hati dan pikiran juga harus terus di up-grade..maka sebab itu kembalikanlah setiap permasalahan hati ke yang memiliki hidup ini, dalam setiap sujud kita untuk-Nya..ya muqollibal qulub tsabbit qolbi 'ala dinika...

engg.....

tat tit tut ayo ikut
biar ngebut yang penting yahud
aduh bingung juga
kenapa harus semua
rame-rame sekaligus
harus bagus
harus beres
aduh ampe kempes....
engggg........

back to my habitat

diklat is over..
hard to set my mind back but glad to be back with my family
if  the life in diklat like live in imagination, my life in the office is a real one for sure
no role playing, no coffee break time, no ideal situation, no more theory
face it or loose
so here i go now
bismillah.....

away from home

Can't believe it, i've been 10 days away from home, such a record.Jadi punya peribahasa baru: jauh di mata berat di pulsa, hehehe....bukti mahalnya harga kenyamanan sebuah keluarga.A new lesson for me is how you control your emotion when you realized something goes wrong, you usually deal with it but right now all you can do is watch and pray...hehmm very very hard to do but it must be done.
As life is a process, so is mine now